5 Sep, 2011

The Circle: A Story About Virginity

By |2021-08-19T17:27:56-04:00September 5th, 2011|Categories: Miscellaneous|Tags: , |0 Comments

NOTE: I wrote this piece back in 2005 as a peer educator for the website MySistahs , an online peer education site developed by Advocates for Youth . Tomorrow, I will post my thoughts on this piece.

 

When I tell people that I don’t smoke, they commend me. When they discover that I don’t drink, they look at me with blank stares and ask: “How can you be 21 and not drink?” I have always been fine telling people about these aspects of my life. It seems to be somewhat out of the norm for college life with the wild parties, the drinking, the smoking; but I have never been curious about those aspects of college life. I’m more into classes, sitting around and being silly with my friends, and finding ways to use my talent and creativity. I’m usually open about most aspects of my life, but it wasn’t until recently that I had to sit down and reevaluate. I still don’t understand myself most of the time. I can admit to that. I have hopes, big and small, and I like to think outside the box. All of this I can admit to anyone. But why is it difficult for me to admit that I am a virgin?

Well, it’s not all that hard. I’m not really embarrassed at all to admit it, but the reactions I receive ( the goofy grins from the boys or the stares of disbelief from the girls) and the comments (“Why?” or “Aww…How old are you again?”) make me hesitant. My virginity is something that I am proud of; yet it is just one of many aspects of me, and it doesn’t overshadow everything else. I don’t want anyone to believe that I think I am better than they are because I’ve never had sex. And I don’t want to push my lifestyle onto others who may not feel the way I do.

It was never a conscious decision on my part to remain abstinent in college. However, I’m remaining abstinent so that I can avoid unintended pregnancies, sexually transmitted infections (STIs), including HIV, and the emotional entanglements that come with sexual activity. I have other things to worry about.

People have different definitions of what remaining abstinent means. To me, sexual abstinence is refraining from vaginal, anal, and oral sexual activity until one is truly ready for sexual activity. An obvious reason for me to delay sex is to reduce my risk of getting pregnant. After all, abstinence is the only method that is 100% effective in preventing pregnancy and STIs. Choosing abstinence might be a matter of finding the right person or deciding to abstain until marriage or something else. I personally plan to wait until I find the right person.

My reasons for remaining abstinent are threefold. I believe that I am physically ready, and I know the risks of pregnancy and STIs. However, I am not really psychologically ready to deal with those risks; and I think that I need to be both physically and psychologically ready or it could ruin the experience for me. My main reason for remaining abstinent is mostly emotional – I’ve never been in love. (It is definitely on my to-do list!) However, I choose to remain abstinent until I find the right person and we find the right moment and I am in the right frame of mind to share that part of myself with another. Maybe it won’t be with the love of my life, but I hope to be able to look back on the experience as a positive one.

As a senior in high school, I envisioned myself going off to college, meeting wonderful people with similar interests and goals, and finding the man of my dreams. He would look like this, he would smell like that, and everyone would know him because he would be very popular, smart, and weird, like me. However, as freshman year turned into sophomore year, snowballed into junior year, and now becomes my senior year, I’ve become concerned. I have yet to find the man of my dreams.

But my question still remains: Why is it difficult for me to admit my virginity?

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31 Aug, 2011

I Blame My Mama (…or How I Got into the Sexual Health Movement)

By |2021-08-19T17:28:14-04:00August 31st, 2011|Categories: Equity & Justice|Tags: , |0 Comments

I am often asked about my decision to become an advocate for sexual and reproductive rights. Before I became involved in this line of work through volunteering and activism in college, I didn’t think much about these issues. In fact, I entered college to study music. Classical music, to be exact. I began playing the violin during the 6th grade, and I carried my love of music with me until my sophomore year of college. My mother was perhaps my biggest supporter, attending all of my concerts and recitals, driving me to my private violin lessons, dropping me off at orchestra auditions, and taking me to the music store to buy new strings or sheet music. I spent 10 years prepping myself for a career in music, and everyone else thought I was headed in that direction too. I used to believe that the sexual and reproductive rights movement was something I just happen to fall into during college, but my introduction began before I even picked up a violin. My mom may have been my biggest supporter in music, but it was what she did (and didn’t do) that planted the seed into the passions and mindset I have today.

I was in middle school, and one day my mother and I were headed back home from a day of being out and about. While listening to the radio, I heard a commercial about bikini area waxing. Of course, I knew what a bikini was, but had not a clue as to what a bikini line was, so I asked my mom…who didn’t give me an answer. At that time, I figured she didn’t hear me, but I know now that not only did she hear me clearly (the radio definitely wasn’t loud) she didn’t respond because she probably didn’t know how to.

Later on, my mom signed my sister and I up for a “pregnancy prevention” module (and that’s probably not the actual name). These classes were taught by our middle school teachers, who clearly weren’t as comfortable teaching the subject matter compared to their routine algebra, language arts, and science classes. And these classes had more to do with anatomy, knowing how babies were made, and what diseases you could catch if you start having sex early (complete with graphic images).

I never had a conversation with my mother about sex or sexual health. While I was more comfortable going to her when my first menstrual cycle began, our talks consisted mainly of the consequences of having sex (pregnancy), if they ever did come up. No HIV, no sexually transmitted infections (STIs), no what to do and where to go for more information about sexual health. In fact, as a high school student, my mother took me to the pediatrician for a routine exam, and when the nurse asked me if I were having sex, my mother answered “No!” for me. (I wanted to play around with her and asked how could she know if I were having sex or not…but I knew not to go there.)

More than ever, I see that my story mirrors many people who get into this movement. There was a lack of parent-child communication regarding sexual health and wellness, and possibly not because our parents and guardians just don’t want to talk about it (though there are some that fall into this category). Oftentimes, parents don’t know how to talk about it. Some parents go for the doom and gloom, focusing more on the after-effects of sex in an attempt to prevent their child from having sex. Some parents (like my mother) believe that schools have curriculums in place to teach students about sex, and rely on these schools to supply information on sexual health and believe that what their kids are getting is accurate information. But we can’t place the blame solely on parents. I can honestly say that I didn’t ask my mother about sex because, just like her, I didn’t know how to bring it up. I wasn’t having sex in middle school or high school, but I didn’t want to put myself in a position where I could lose her trust. Kids are just as afraid to speak to their parents as parents are to speak with their kids.

Thanks to my mother, I am on the path to do what I can to make sure that parents, children, and even couples become comfortable opening up the lines of communication when it comes to sexual health. We spend so much time making sure that kids know the book and classroom skills needed to get into college (and most of it we don’t use after high school anyway), when we should also be discussing sex, which is a natural part of being human and can prepare children for becoming responsible about their health, knowing about their bodies before someone else gets near it.

Here are some things to consider when you decide to begin speaking with your parent or child about sexual health. It may be easier said than done, but with practice, it’ll get better: (more…)

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